I don’t think people realize how much strength it takes to pull your own self out of an anxiety attack or a panic attack. So if you’ve done that today or any day, I’m proud of you.
(Source: deathwisher)
You sound exactly how I was through school and to be honest how I still am, so I’m completely understanding where you’re coming from.
School is always a really tricky time because not only are you preparing for the rest of your life, but you’re trying to figure out who you are in that moment and searching for a place where you fit. It feels important to be popular and have a lot of friends, and when you don’t fit in you feel like you need to change; believe me sweetheart, you don’t. Popularity is only temporary - having the most friends isn’t going to get you to university, get you a job, a husband, a house, a LIFE. You can’t put popularity on your CV, and those 5 years or so years of having a lot of friends feels like a blink of an eye compared to the next 50 or 60 years of your life. People look to you for answers because you’re smart, but giving it to them without question won’t earn you respect because they know why you’re handing them over so easily. The next time somebody asks, don’t give in so easy - if you have to work hard then so should they.
All through school I never fully fit, and I never thought I would. I eventually came out of my shell and started to interact with people instead of letting my fear hold me back, but I never truly belonged anywhere, and I knew that. I eventually stopped caring about labels, and figured it’s better to have a small number of close friends than a lot of people around you who would never fully be there for you when you need them.
Later in life you will learn that people admire the smart, the confident and the brave. You will earn friends for your personality, not your looks, and the people you once wished you were friends with will envy your success. It’s important to believe in yourself and remember that school won’t last forever. It may seem like the most important thing in the world when you’re in it, but you’ll realise once it’s over it was one of the most insignificant periods of your life. Be the wolf that leads, not a sheep that follows.
Hope this helps, and remember you can message anytime you need to talk. Keep smiling, sweetheart ~
Xoxo
Rejection comes in many forms, but for a lot of people it’s too much to handle whichever form it’s in. It can be rejection from a job or a university, something you really wanted but just couldn’t attain. These kinds of rejections hurt, but are often only temporary and encourage us to re-route and find alternative careers or courses that will make us just as happy. However, the other kind of rejection is in no way kind or pleasant; it’s the gut-renching, heart breaking, soul crushing kind of rejection that makes you feel as if you will never find something as good. Most of us feel this way at some point in our lives within a relationship, regardless of whether there is love there or not. Humans are sensitive creatures, constantly searching for the gratification and support of others while pretending they’re not looking for love or they “don’t believe” in romance. The truth is, everybody needs to be loved, even if they aren’t ready to admit it, and the feeling of rejection by somebody you feel yourself slowly attaching to is in no way painless. It’s a pain that drags on, haunting every waking thought and aching in every fibre of your being. It’s hard to ignore and even harder to shake off, and is something that can often trigger a downward spiral that can change the course of our lives for good. Like a train, we connect ourselves to the track, never even considering alternative routes because we’re focussed on the one we’re already on. But what if something happens beyond our control and we derail? Do we quickly find an alternative route to save ourselves, or do we allow ourselves to come crashing down? Of course, most would say that they would save themselves, but in reality, the control is no longer theirs in order to do anything - all rational thought goes out of the window, and we just can’t seem to keep hold of what we’re losing. Sometimes, life just comes crashing in around us, and the only thing we can do is wait to claw ourselves from the rubble and start again.
(Source: find-a-voice-and-shout-out-loud)
